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I tried to post this as a reply, but apparently you've blocked me. Thanks so much for that. Oh well, all I can do is post this here and maybe it'll find it's way to you. So, here goes.....
First of all, I don’t appreciate being referred to as a “little shit”. If you were truly trying to be the better person you would not refer to people with names such as the above. You’d show some decency. Another thing, if a friendship wasn’t meant to be permanent, why did this one last for eight years? I’ll tell you why, I put up with a lot of stuff. You have always put me down and tried to drive my friends away from me or so I’ve felt. You were always jealous when I had friends other than you or ones you approved of. For example, in 9th grade when I became friends with 4 people in our gym class you tried to drive them away. However, you didn’t succeed. Then, used an event like me not inviting you to a party (because I wasn’t allowed to, which I explained to you) to completely fly off the wall and scream betrayal. You were desperate for friends in 10th grade and came back. I accepted you back, no questions asked. You eventually asked to join my lunch table, we all accepted you. I never tried to drive any of your friends away or turn anyone against you. If anyone turned against you, it was because they saw the light out of god’s pure will. So, now in this current event, I can probably guess you’re screaming betrayal once again. We never have talked about this situation. You have tried to talk to me once about this. Once and only once. The one time was at lunch; I refused to because I was too angry and didn’t like your tone. You instant messaged me the night everything occurred only to ask me about others not our problem. I believe it was the next day you instant messaged me this paragraph about, “how you have no regrets and don’t see why I’m angry and going against you”. I politely instant messaged you back that I was just signing off and didn’t care to address this with you at this moment in time. Then, the lunch incident occurred. That was it. I guess you assumed I didn’t want to talk and was just going to throw our so called “sisterhood” as you used to say, out the door. Well, you thought wrong, I wasn’t. If you had only given me time to cool off, I would’ve talked to you. But now, because of all your heinous accusations, lies, and assumptions, I’m too far gone. I can’t digest that fact that you say you’re hurt and even state forgiveness takes time. And yet, you’re giving up. The reason this all started in my world, was because I saw how you used a certain person (even though you might not have realized it) and then turned around and dissed her. I have been slowly simmering over many issues for a long time. Too long actually. I was angered by what I saw and basically the pot boiled over. If when you stated you had been used, if by any chance at all that was related to me; I hope you realize I’ve never used you. Never. Whenever we made plans for anything, the only thing I asked for was some of your time. I always had to clear my schedule and wait for you to inform me when you’d be gracing me with some of your glorious godsent presence. I also don’t see how you can say so many things about people, even publicly make it known you hate them and then just go back to being friends with them or continue on like nothing occurred. Well, I think I’m done. This situation is up to you. If you want to throw it all away, I’m very sorry to hear that. If you wish to discuss this, I’m here. Things can be fixed; it just takes work and time to heal. It would be a same to waste eight years of standing by each other. I’m sorry if my words have offended you in any way. But, they had to be stated and known, it’s a step.